Saturday, March 19, 2011

family connections

My sister just had a baby...a wonderful, chubby, cuddly love that is bringing so much joy to our family.  He is completely perfect.....

My mom just received news that one of her cousins passed away suddenly...as this was the one cousin in that branch of the family that she kept in touch with, it seems to be a bigger ending....

Growing up, there was my mom, my dad, my sister and me.  We moved a province away from our very large extended family when I was 4.  I guess the 1st couple years were hard...I really don't remember, but for my mom and dad it must have been difficult to be away from the support of family and friends and having to start all over with 2 little girls.

I started to notice we came from a big, boisterous family on one visit back...I believe it was for a wedding.  There were lots of people, all talking and laughing.  Everyone seemed to belong.  Very overwhelming for the shy kid in the corner.  I like to sit back and watch people interact....I am not much of a joiner....I am more of an observer.  My sister fit in right away, but try as hard as everyone did, I was much more comfortable in the corner talking to one person at a time.  And they had to come to me...

As I got older, it was a little easier to enter into a conversation...or even start one myself.  I started to learn more about this family that I am a part of....I have a cousin that is shy like me, an aunt that is a wonderful writer, an uncle that kept a picture of me from when I was 3, and everyone loved me. 

Now more of the family has spread out....California, England, Saskatchewan...keeping in touch seems to be more important now, and yet with the way we are all so busy, seems to be one of the hardest things to do.  I guess this is my way of reaching out and letting everyone know how my little part of the family is doing.  I am also very glad for Facebook as I can check in on family and leave a little thinking of you message.  I feel slightly more connected, and as an observer, this is perfect!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Resolutions

I have been thinking these last couple weeks about the custom of making a New Years Resolution.  We have all done it in the past, either quietly to ourselves or shouting from the rooftops, but the hard part is keeping them. 
There are many resolutions that I have made, all with good intentions....I once decided that I would work on my language.  You know, stop swearing so much.  That one lasted till I hit the open road and some @$$ cut me off.  Yep, probably all of 5 minutes.  Then there was the time I decided that I needed to be more organized.  Bought a lovely filing cabinet (the nice looking one, not the cheap metal one) and set it up right by the computer desk so that when I paid my bills (as they arrived) I could file the statements till the next month.  Then I would shred the old statement with that fancy little shredder I just had to buy too.  I now have a filing cabinet that has 2 years worth of paper sitting on top of it and the shredder has lots of statements piled behind it.  For me, that is organized!  I have also done the more traditional resolution of getting in shape.  Joined a gym, started walking, bought new runners, the whole shebang.  I went to the gym for approx 3 weeks...got bored.  Walked with my girlfriends for 3 months, but then it was cold one night, raining the next, had to be somewhere the night after...oh look, I haven't gone for a walk in a month.  Better make myself feel better and have some ice cream!
Which brings me to the eating right and loosing weight resolution.  This is the one that I keep coming back to in  hopes that someday it will stick.  I do try...I have a composter full of veggies that have gone bad because I forget that they are there.  I buy healthy snacks only to head for the hot buttered popcorn and chocolate.  I make sure there are the mixings for smoothies, but that takes time you know....yep, I try.  I'm just not very good at making the healthy choice.  I love fries with gravy, chocolate, deep fried anything!  And I love Cheese....cheese in my soup, cheese melted over tortilla chips with sour cream, cheese in my sauces and, best of all, Cheesecake!!  Mmmmmm....cheesecake with anything! 
So, this year I am going a different route.  I have decided that, yes, I will make a New Years Resolution, only this one will be one that I can stick with....My Resolution this year will be to read at least one book a month!  Yep, that is right....I will read a book a month.  And as I have finished 2 already and have started on my 3rd, I believe that I just might excel at this resolution!

Happy New Year to everyone.